It hurts to return a book late

30 April 2015.

I was cleaning up my room a little as it had been a great mess for 3 months. Then I realized I forgot to return a book to the college library. So I went to the library, hand over my student ID and knew I had to pay some fines, probably about 10bucks max. 

The librarian told me that if a book was returned 11 days late, it would be about 1 buck per day, anything beyond that would be settled with the management. I was 17 days late. So..I was given a form to fill my details and handed it to one of the staffs. She took the form, brought it into one of the rooms, while I sat in front of he desk waiting. Not long after she came out with my form, tapped the calculator and wrote the amount on that form.

I was extremely shocked. 345 bucks! What? I told her that it's the holidays and that I was away and unable to return the book. She just nodded, agreed that it's holiday, and told me to pay. I got so mad that I stood up, slammed my hands on the table, and said 'Why should I pay this amount? I shouldn't have brought this book back here. Or maybe, I should just steal some books. I will not pay a single cent!" (kinda not logical..and the fact that I had 500 bucks deposit with the college). Everyone else in the library was looking at me. Didn't feel embarrassed at all..just. so much rage.

I went out of the library and started slamming my head real hard and punching my fists multiple times on the walls outside. The walls got damaged. Really, I was sooooo angry. Then I walked out the building, walked to the garden and got onto the front seat of a roller coaster. Stuck my legs out and left them hanging while the roller coaster was moving in circles...was a little out of my mind..

Then I woke up. Such a weird irrational dream.